with three major projects due next week and in the following, this has gotta be one of the worst ways to kick off a new year. having had all the parties, feasting, travelling and slacking, indeed is it hard to get back to the books and projects and to rush your butts off them. im not having a good feeling about it all. probably due to past experiences of being played out at the last minute by certain group members and being left alone to chiong through the night with only hours remaining to the submission deadline. its because of that i think i've developed a serious phobia for last minute work, which at all cost i would now avoid. well im trying hard to focus and get back on track, but there's still a significant part of me that feels insecure and shaken, not knowing if my work for the projects are heading in the right direction. in times like these i turn to God and search for the guidance and peace he promised us, a peace which the soul may fully embrace, but not one that world may understand.